we're only human.

i didn't think it was possible to feel so many emotions in such a short amount of time.
i think i've felt almost every emotion possible in the past two weeks.
so many things have happened. so many things haven't happened.
i have felt excitement, frustration, pure happiness, anger, hope, love, loss, joy, etc etc.

so, me being the odd person i am....
i love to relate my life to song lyrics. i look them up and write them in my journal. they can pretty much tell you how i was feeling at certain points in my life. i've been doing this since i was fifteen. but lately, feeling so many emotions, i have had a hard time finding songs i can really relate to right now. these songs say words i can't say but wish i could. the only song, at least today, is jon mclaughlin's "human".

after all, we're only human.
always fighting what we're feeling.
hurt instead of healing.
after all, we're only human.
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leaving...
after all.

it's not that this song is even perfect for everything going on. it just feels so honest to me. and the words are true.

music will always be a big part of my life. i find solace in it. i love to find songs and make them my prayers....because like i said before, there are things i just can't verbalize, even to my Father. it's almost like a coping mechanism to me. odd? maybe.

but it's one of my most favorite things in the world.