a sunday full of nothing to do.....

.....gives you random thoughts. go with me here. :)



with nothing else to do this afternoon, i laid around thinking about how fast time has flown by. i'm going to be 21 in like two months. and that blows me away. it's like, where did time go? i can vividly remember me and jason playing basketball like everyday together. i can close my eyes and see us in that gold thunderbird. him driving us to school, me controlling the CD player. good times. those are some of my favorite memories. we listened to good charlotte and new found glory when no one else knew who they were. we had our own parts to sing in the songs. and we could probably still remember them today.

there's only three people i still keep in good touch with that i've literally grown up with. cala, ezelis, and miranda. i've known cala all my life cause she's my cousin. i met ezelis and miranda in 3rd grade, and the rest is history. we all went from playing house, to swimming, to coloring, to calling boys and gossiping. now me, ezelis, and cala are in college. miranda is married. gah it's insane. i can't get over it. today ezelis read part of a note i wrote her in like 10th grade. i kept saying over and over "i am so stupid!" its fun to go back and remember how silly you were in high school.

i swear just yesterday i was fourteen. i thought i had so many worries when i really didn't. all i had to do was be a kid, and i couldn't understand that. i couldn't wait to grow up. it's amazing what the ages of 14, 15, and 16 held for me. even if i didn't want to grow up, i had to. situations and consequences and decisions forced me to. but no lie, the summer before i started my sophomore year of high school is the summer i will never forget. i think everyone has those kinds of summers....the one where you start realizing you're not a kid anymore. you learn so many new things. that was the one for me. it was mostly just me and him, and a couple of my friends. i've never learned so much from one person in my entire life. that about sums it up.

and now, here i sit. getting ready to turn 21 and move away on my own for the first time. away from the security of anderson. i guess i know once i move, i probably won't live in this house again. it's possible but not likely. but i'm ready.

see? someone needs to give me something to do on sunday afternoons or else i go way deep into these thoughts.