beauty in pain.

so a big fat warning. do NOT click this link if you are squeamish. it's a bit graphic.

this picture. it's one of those you hate to look at but you just can't stop.
i don't know how i found it. i was searching random flickr pictures and found this girl's picture ream. i don't know who she is, i'm not condoning what she's doing.

http://flickr.com/photos/myguerrilla/2857646101/in/photostream/

but this picture screams so many things to me.
on one arm she's got one of the most awesome tattoos ever :)
on the other, you can obviously see she's cut herself for awhile. i've never seen anything like this. and trust me, i've seen crazy things. this girl has been through a lot and you can tell by this one picture. her arm screams battle to me. constant battle. but then again, it screams victory because all you see is scars. no new cuts. just healing. you see the consequences of what she did to herself, but there's beauty in scars i think. if that's weird to you, oh well. i'm not gonna lie, i've been through what this girl has. i was in flippin' mental hospitals for cutting myself. i attempted suicide. this all happened when i was 14, 15, 16, 17. some of my friends know firsthand what went on. i was on anti-depressants. i've got scars. so on one hand you look at this picture and you cringe. it kinda grosses you out. but on the other hand, it's beautiful because it does represent that the pain is over. you can see looking through this girl's pictures that she still cuts herself, but at least you know she's capable of stopping and getting better.

i know, i know. i'm weird and this is random. but i have a heart for people going through what i did because i understand exactly why they do it. like i said, i don't condone this in any way, but yeah. i get it.

glad i can learn from my past.