paper, rock, scissors.

i love listening to old songs i haven't heard in awhile. most of them are perfect "summertime" songs, or so i think. i'm dedicating a whole post to them :)

one is the title of this blog. "paper rock scissors" by jamisonparker. it makes me want to drive with the windows down on a warm summer evening.
let's see. another is "runaway" by mae. i didn't know for years that mae sang it. i was joyful when i discovered that because they are one of my favorites.

just in case you decide to enjoy these too, here's a long list: ( go to www.last.fm to listen)

1. "A Decade Under The Influence" - Taking Back Sunday
2. "Sic Transit Gloria" - Brand New (the slow version is fun....makes me feel sneaky for some reason)
3. "I Woke Up In A Car" - Something Corporate
4. "Best of Me" - The Starting Line
5. "Honestly" - Cartel
6. "Take Cover" - Acceptance
7. Hmm......pretty much any song by Copeland. Yes sirree.
8. "I'm Feeling This" - Blink 182
9. "Always You" - Amber Pacific
10. "Fall Back Into My Life" - Amber Pacific
11. "My Eyes Burn" - Matchbook Romance (probably in my top 3 'summer' songs!) :)
12. "Letters To You" - Finch
13. "Ohio Is For Lovers" - Hawthorne Heights
14. "Anthem of Our Dying Day" - Story of the Year
15. "Saints and Sailors" - Dashboard Confessional
16. "Hands Down" - Dashboard Confessional
17. "Never Let You Go" - Third Eye Blind (isn't the end fun to sing! hahaha.)
18. "Swing Swing" - The All American Rejects
19. "Miles Apart" - Yellowcard
20. "Hit or Miss" - New Found Glory (this song reminds me of riding to good ol' Palmetto with my brother driving. we'd wail this in the car! good times, good times.)
21. "We're at the Top of the World" - The Juliana Theory
22. "So Long Astoria" - The Ataris
23. "The Little Things" - Good Charlotte (let's all note their first album is awesome. all the other ones are stupid. love that first one though. i remember the days of listening to it and no one knowing who they were. ah freshman year of high school.)
24. "Crawling in the Dark" - Hoobastank

i think that should do it. i could keep going but your eyes are probably tired of reading this. kudos to you if you did read it all, though. :)

a night of lyrics.

i mean, really. there's nothing else to do. i've spent a little while tonight looking up song lyrics. thought i'd share.

For some the world's a treasure to discover...
And your scenery should never stay the same.
Jon McLaughlin - "Indiana"

In this life, you're the one place I call home
In this life, you're the feeling I belong
In this life, you're the flower and the thorn
You're everything that's fair in love and war
In this life I'm stubborn to the core
In this life I've been burning after more
We both know what these open arms are for
You're everything that's fair
Switchfoot - "Head Over Heels (In This Life)"

We hold these truths self evident,
The lies we used to represent who we are,
because it was never meant to be.
And all the songs we used to sing, they used to tell us everything.
All about how it was never meant to be.
But the better days behind us now.
We all need someone to tell us how
To save the state of where we are,
It keeps demanding more and more and more.
And who will save us? This can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save, and can you save us?
Oh I can't go on out of rhythm with our time.
Cartel - "Save Us"

And I think of you whenever life gets me down
I think of you whenever you're not around
And you rest your bones
Somewhere far from my house
Yeah, but you still pull me home
A Fine Frenzy - "Think of You"

Love lead me on
Where no one else has gone
Faith keep me strong
Love lead me on
The Afters - "Love Lead Me On"


that'll do for now. :)

hysterical.

once again, gotta show my love for SNL. :)

so this first clip is a spoof of Deal or No Deal. And the clip itself is not that funny....it's Kristen Wiig. She's acting as one of the models. It's her part that made me die laughing. She's my fave!
Watch :)




This one is pretty funny too. These were both last night on the season finale. Steve Carell hosted it. This is him and Kristen, of course. Haha.




When I grow up, I want to be Kristen Wiig. Yeah....that's about right. :)

time and change.

isn't it funny how things can change so fast.
people.
relationships.
life.

you can't avoid change. it's better to try to go along with it, right?

sounds good.
too bad it's so hard to do.

some change in my life is my own fault. for example...let's be real, i suck at friendships.
i make friends, really good friends.....then somehow i always ruin it.
i've tried to think about why i do the things i do. i'm a mystery to myself.
so most of the friends i had in high school and college i no longer have.
and i realize that's probably my fault.

that's one hard thing to deal with.

some change in my life isn't my fault. you can't control when other people change. or when situations around you change. people come, people go. things happen. things don't happen.
and you flow with everything. like you're a leaf on water, adapting to whatever comes along.

i'm not meant to live like this. i know i'm not.
and yet, in a way, i am that leaf. and i hate it, because life becomes harder by the week.
i don't know what to do to get out of this stupid "rut" i'm in.
yeah.

this probably doesn't matter to anyone at all, but it was good to get this all out.

unknown.

first of all, read these lyrics. of course. ;)
courtesy of the all wonderful Lifehouse.

"this doubt is screaming in my face
in this familiar place sheltered and concealed
and if this night won't let me rest
don't let me second guess what I know to be real
put away all I know for tonight
and maybe I just might learn to let it go
take my security from me and maybe finally I won't have to know everything
I am falling into grace
to the unknown to where you are and
faith makes everybody scared
it's the unknown the don't-know
that keeps me hanging on and on and on to you"

i've heard this song a million times. it's on their first album, so i've been listening to it since i was like fifteen. and here i am at 20 years old, and i'm just now really hearing these lyrics. they struck me. because i have such an issue with faith sometimes. i start second guessing everything i think i'm so sure about. the song is right, faith makes everybody scared. this doesn't even have to mean faith in God. it can mean faith in a relationship, person, or even something like an airplane. we trust that relationships will last, people won't let us down, and that plane will stay in the air like it's supposed to. who guarantees this stuff though? no one. so as Christians, how do we know for sure God exists? Jesus died and rose again? we didn't see that happen, we have a book to tell us. and we trust it. surely every Christian has thought it at one point or another..."what if this is all wrong, and God is just a nice idea?" trust me, i've struggled with all of this. and it's true, i didn't witness the crucifixion/resurrection. i've never met Jesus face to face. i've never audibly heard God's voice. but when i sit and think about seeing "God's fingerprints"...oh yes, I so have. in my life, in my friends' lives, in my parents' lives. and that's enough for me, if nothing else. i hang onto God because He hangs onto me too. like the song says, "you never let go of me..." :)

words.

some people can just write something purely beautiful.
i'm talking about Jason Reeves. i've put some of his lyrics on this blog before.
but on his myspace is a little paragraph stuck in there that i didn't notice until today.
and it's so amazing. of course, i'm gonna share. :)

"im not sure what is a dream and what is real. or if real is a real word and if words even exist outside of our imagination..i still can't say for certain if falling asleep is opening your eyes in the morning or closing them at night. and im lonely. but not sadly. everybody is alone. i want love like love wants love..oxygen and drifting clouds. and im not scared to be alive. these days more people are. money is an illusion. the world has been gaining some sort of momentum over "time" and every day it's spinning faster. we are growing up too quick. someday i'll start to. i write music because it feels like breathing. i sing because it is connection. i wish everybody would sing with me and without even gathering together sing so honestly that the songs could be carried on wind and heard at every point in the universe, even in translation. i wish there were no more bombs or bullets. and i wish we'd stop using politicians for negotiations. people are far too beautiful at heart to be introduced so cruelly into the blinding brilliant world. children. if there were to be a new beginning. would it all come out the same way again?"


really,what part of the brain do you use to get stuff like this? mine's shut off. for sure.
read this a few times. it really makes you think.

i heart SNL.

really.
i love it. me and stina have like weekly conversations about the sketches. you'll see us on there one day. :)

here's some clips.