i'll be your best friend forever if....

You got me a cute little husky puppy like this one ;)

And yes, I know it doesn't stay a puppy forever. Huskies are so beautiful full grown. The household has been discussing getting a puppy....I vote yes, please. :) I miss having a dog around all the time!

So....whaddya say??

no one really wins.

the longer i let this go, the more it absolutely shreds me to pieces.
i wish this could all disappear. i wish i could erase my mind of what i know.
i wish i really could just let it go, nothing spoken of the subject.
but i know i can't.

i'm at such a battle with myself. i feel like either way i lose.

everything is becoming real.

and it literally makes me sick.
i'd like to know how you sleep at night.
and i'd like to know why i deserve any of this.

really, just tell me.

what else is there to say?

my feelings i get are always right.

whatever.

i start to write something on my blog everyday but i always word stuff so poorly.

there's just things going on i don't really understand. i might understand if i just ask about it, but this is me we're talking about. i don't ask about anything until it absolutely eats me up inside and i have to. eventually i'll get to that point about this but for now i just let it make me sad everyday.

what a life i lead.