alive.

everything's a piece of everyone.

things that currently put a smile on my face :)

i'm even going to include pictures! whooo :)

1. Tennessee Titans Are Undefeated!

Who knew? I don't think anyone saw this coming but it makes us all happy! Even with Vince Young's drama (or whatever happened with him) the Titans still pull off wins....and good ones too. You beat the Jaguars, you beat the Vikings? Yeah, you're pretty darn good.

2. Jack's Mannequin - The Glass Passenger

I can't lie, I haven't listened to all of it yet but what I've listened to I love. For example, their song Swim. Absolute love for that song. If you don't wanna buy it on iTunes, go do something illegal and download from Limewire. Haha :)

3. McDonald's Sweet Tea

Mmmmm. You get a huge nice cup for a dollar. A frickin' dollar! I'm addicted for sure. Back in South Carolina they sell it by the gallon, but not here in Tennessee. In fact, they tried to tell me that no McDonald's anywhere does that. I told them check with SC and try again. I love my sweet tea so much that sadly, I really did say that. Ha. If I was cut open right now I would bleed sweet tea. Kind of sad. But then again it makes me happy! Oh, and Backyard Burgers has some really good sweet tea. And yes, how can I forget! Cracker Barrel! My place of employment! I love making tea there because I make it extra sweet and people like that. So I always say "Hey, you take a break. I'll make the tea!" That's so addiction. And nerdiness. Gosh I'm weird.

4. Friends

I was never into watching Friends in high school. I remember my junior year when we all went with Katie on her senior trip to NYC, everyone but her and I watched the Friends finale. I remember Katie and I went to the drugstore in Times Square to get posterboard to make signs for the Today show. We were just like, we have never watched it, why watch the last one?

Oh how times have changed. Alan and his brother Matt have all the seasons of Friends and since I never watched it we have been every chance we get. I'm hooked! I love the Chandler/Monica romance. I want Ross and Rachel to end up together. Phoebe and Joey crack me up. Everytime we watch it we all say we wish life was like Friends. Live in New York City in a nice apartment with your best friends right there. A coffee shop to go to everyday. And the couch is never taken! Score! Ahhh. Friends. Who knew a sitcom with such a simple name could explode.

I think four is a nice even number to stop on. This got lengthy, no? It's fun to do posts like these sometimes. And now you can enjoy all these things too!

Go Titans :)

it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year.

it's been awhile since i've watched a movie that makes me think.
tonight was the night. i watched reign over me. oh my. i haven't thought that deep in awhile.

i was going to give a summary but it stunk as i typed it out, so go look on imdb and join me back on here :)

could you imagine waking up one day and losing everything you know? i don't mean a job or money. those things can be replaced (not easily of course). but people you can't replace. you can try, but everyone knows you can't. what if one minute you have everyone you need the next minute they are gone? what in the world do you do?

sometimes i hate when people say "live today like it's your last!" cause if i did, i wouldn't work. i'd be somewhere i've never been, surrounded by people i love, doing something i want to burn on my brain to remember as i'm leaving the earth. right?
what if someone told you to live today like its your best friend's last day on earth. then what?

see, i'm so odd. i think about stuff like this. people think stuff just happens on TV or movies or even just to other people. but it doesn't. i could wake up tomorrow and have lost someone close to me. then i will regret things i never said or did with them. and it's not like i can go to every person that means something to me and tell them how i feel. for one, they will think i'm kinda weird. but on the reverse side, i personally live with a serious health condition. i could live to be 90, but by the same token i could go next week. i feel like i would tell someone that and they would say "oh amber. don't be overdramatic." but really, its true is it not? i know what's wrong with me. i got updated every few weeks on what's wrong with me. but did anyone start actually treating me? no.

okay, maybe that's a little overdramatic :) but do you get my point?
WHY WHY WHY would you ever want to hold feelings back from someone? because you are afraid they will be mad at you or laugh at you? so what? i obviously can't practice what i preach but you should.

quick, go hug someone you love :) and tell me if i make sense! ha.

digging my own grave.

i hear my bones break all the time.

whatever tomorrow brings i'll be there with

open arms and open eyes.

Who Are You?

So I have this class at school called Success Strategies. It's a freshman class but since I'm a transfer student, I have to take it. I'm supposed to be writing a paper for tomorrow called "Who Am I?" I was like, great. I'm in 5th grade again. I thought this paper would be a piece of cake. But it's seriously the hardest paper I've ever worked on. Forget trying to write a ten page paper on an ancient religious ruler. Been there, done that. I mean, really? You want to know who I am?

I wish I could tell you because I don't know. But who does, really? Who really has themselves figured out? I'd like to get some tips from them if you know who they are.

I know I mess stuff up a lot. Does that make me a screw up?
I am way too nice. Does that make me a doormat?
I don't try as hard as I should. Does that make me lazy?

I just don't know. Maybe I'll print this blog and turn it in. Ha. :)

what if you're making me all that i'm meant to be?

life is much more different than i ever thought it would be at this moment.
even where i'm sitting....never would have guessed it.

but.

i love it and wouldn't change a thing! :)

i want movies of my dreams and pictures on my walls.

don't forget to buckle when you fall

beneath the pressure of the seconds when your life became a screamer.

everything looks perfect from far away.

they will see us waving from such great heights.

"come down now" they'll say.

but everything looks perfect from far away.

"come down now."

but we'll stay.

the odds are in your favor.

i'm taking a chance.

this could be different.

this could be all i've waited for.

i seem to like this.

say anything. but say what you mean. cause i'm caught in suspension.

when i get close you turn away. there's nothing that i can do or say. now i need you to tell me the truth. you know i'd do that for you.

so why are you running away?

you win some, you lose some.

what if i left?

how much would that really change?

would you let the door close or catch it before it shuts?

how much are you willing to lose?

or do you feel like you'd lose anything at all?

how about we sit on the steps and talk things out?

how about we start all over?

i don't think it's good when you're everything to me.....

and i'm nothing to you.

What time is it?

enough said.

you'll be fine.

there's always something more you wish they would say.